Happy One Month Anniversary in California to me!!!
Yesterday, I woke up happy and ready to take over the world. I sent out over 40 emails to different media publications and blogs looking to hire on-air correspondents the day before. So, I woke up excited to see who has responded to me. I am experienced, talented, and definitely, have what everyone is looking for. Walk to my living room, turn on my computer, and log into my email. Loading….and….no new emails. I think to myself, maybe it is still early because it is only 10 am. Some offices do not open until 10 am and they need time to settle in.
I continue on with my day because I have edits that are due in a few hours and I still have to post on my Instagram my daily video. A few hours pass by, it is now 1 pm, let’s check my email. Loading…and…you have 6 unread messages. Look at the new 6 messages, of course, they are all spam. Disappointment sets in. Now, I think to myself, Am I a good reporter?….Do I have what it takes to make it?…Am I ever going to get to the top?…Why do I keep failing?…What am I missing?
I look down to see what time it was and happened to glance at the date, April 10th. Oh, shit, my car note is due in 2 days, and I have no money in my account. STRESS!!! I drop down to my knees and started praying. Lord, did I make the right decision. I left a salary paying job to pursue my dream. Despite the fact I was not happy, I still had a consistent income and a roof over my head that I never worried about losing.
Although I became more depress and unambitious, I still decided to keep sending my resume. I woke up this morning to a call, asking to cover the ASCAP music expo. Now, this is where I believe the test comes. Look at the specs:
- This gig is unpaid.
- It is for three days (Thurs-Sat)
- I am scheduled to work this Fri and Sat
- I need money to pay my bills
- I want my career to take off already
I can cover Thursday because I am off. I can get someone to cover my Friday and Saturday shift, however, I am broke. Which is more important? At this present moment, I am going o take a leap of faith and give my shift away. I came out here for a reason and I plan on making it.
Soooo, who wants to cover my Friday and Saturday shift?