Dear Small Talk,
One day, I woke up and realize that I stop living. I remember back in high school when I enjoyed every moment of my life. I did not need any alcohol or any cannabis for me to enjoy anything that happened. I actually felt alive! I felt like I was actually enjoying and living each moment and every step that I took. I even remember smells and images and places. Even in college I enjoyed every moment of my college career. Until my junior year, and then life took a hold of me.
Now, I stop see or hear anything. I’m walking and looking but I’m not seeing or hearing. I am here, I am present, but I’m not living. They tell us to stop existing and start living, but how can you start living when all your problems, bills, worries, and fears keep playing on replay in your head. How do you expect us to forget about everything going on in our life and in this world and just enjoy every moment we are living.
The funny thing about that; we know the answer. We say all the time for fun and secretly mean it, but it’s hard for us to just let go. The answer is, “Let Go, Let God!” or my favorite, “Jesus take the wheel.”
But tell me how can we allow Jesus to take the wheel, if every time we are having a little bit of fun all about you worries and fears find creative ways to creep up in our mind. I could literally just be out and about and enjoying life and all of a sudden, I turn my head and see something that just reminds me of all my problems and my entire day is ruined.
So, the question everyone keeps asking how do we start living and stop existing?
Well, what I found out is that we sincerely just have to let go. Whenever those problems decide to creep up; ignore them. They told us as kids, when someone has an issue with you just simply ignore them and move on. Why can’t we take that advice as an adult? The reason why is because it’s not someone having a problem with us, it’s ours own mind having a problem with us. So how can we ignore our own mind?
Here’s the answer, “Let go, Let God!”
Now, this is something that is not going to be easy. This is going to take a lot of practice. But as they always told us, with practice makes perfect. Its funny we complain that no one gave us a handbook on how to handle life. However, they have been giving us lessons since a child but we fail to relate those lessons to our adult life because we believe those are kid lessons. Then why are kids to happiest people on earth?
Talkers, this is for you all!