Dear Qui Talks,
I almost let anger control my life again. The other day my car was towed. When I went to pick it up, they towed it to a tow yard an hour away. Since everyone I know with a car had to work, I took an Uber. After arriving to the lot, I had to wait 45 mins for my car to be driven to me. As soon as I open driver door, I saw trash and my papers thrown everywhere. I opened my glove box and saw that they have stolen almost everything out of my car. Every storage box in my car was empty, including my trunk.
Furious, I sped off the lot and unto the freeway. While accelerating, I call my friend exclaiming everything that just happened. As I got more angry, the faster I drove. I felt the fire and rage building on the inside. I haven’t felt that feeling in a long time. Not ever since I decided to surrender my life from it all. I didn’t like that feeling. It made me want to literally slam my car into the car that was in front of me. As soon as I felt that feeling, I hung up the phone with my friend and slowed down.
I started to think, why did I let materialistic things get me so angry, that I risked my life, car, and license? This is what anger does to you- you do not think! Anger is on the surface, but if we allow it to penetrate your heart, you can actually feel it begin to take over. I did not like that person. I forgot about that person.
I remember when anger penetrated my heart for the first time. It was the first time my heart was broken by my first love. Before that, I never let things break my spirit. I was always happy. After my first heartbreak, I became angry. That anger became my shield. It took 8 years to release that hold. After a year of surrendering it all, I forgot how anger felt. I never want that feeling again!
Talkers, how many of you actually feel anger rising on the inside? How do you stop it from accelerating?