Dear Qui Talks,
I am getting that feeling again. That self-doubt feeling where I can’t see a positive future. I woke up this morning in a rush because I had to get back home in time. I was unable to do my morning routine of meditation and prayer. As I get on the NYC “Q train,” the lack of my success dawns on me. The only reason why I began to feel this way is because I received a message from a friend of some good news that has occurred in her career. She started doing these motivational videos (which are phenomenal) and got reposted by a prominent influencer. That post received over 15,000 views. As excited as I am for her, I can’t help but wonder what am I doing wrong?
I’ve been in this media industry for over 7 years and started “Dear Qui Talks” 8 months ago. Why haven’t I been reposted? Am I heading in the right direction? These are the thoughts that run through my mind. I turn my head to look at the subway map on the “Q train” and I see a sticky label that someone has purposely placed over the plexiglass that is used to protect the posters and written on it is the word “pray.” I kid you not, as these self-doubt thoughts begin to take over my mind, the word pray is the very thing I see. Of course, I instantly pray. If that is not God, I do not know who that may be.
After praying, I get this thought to write to you all about how I am feeling. As I presently write this, I realized I am doing alright. My podcast is being streamed on multiple platforms (iHeart, Spotify, Google Play, Podcast App, etc…) I just had an amazing LIVE podcast event this past weekend. Although my blog is not getting that many views, I have a few amazing returning viewers that I can count on to always read and like my posts. Things may not be moving drastically; all I can do is keep moving, keep posting, and keep aiming for the goal. I hope to just help someone along the way.
That is what I am going to keep telling myself.
A girl battling self-doubt!
Dear Qui Talks: I’m getting that feeling again!